I soar across the sky
with wind flowing through my hair.
My arms are spread out
like an Eagles wings.
All is peaceful, here above the sea.
I can see the Heavens
and God’s Golden City.
The streets are paved with gold,
the people look brand new.
Clouds lay softy
in the big blue sky.
An angel flies beside me
with gorgeous wings of white.
We flew away past space
and didn’t come back until the starry night.
Have you ever felt like doing something stupid, but you just don’t have the strength to do it? I know how you feel. Just a couple days ago I wasn’t planning on waking up to another day of what seemed like Hell. It took someone that I secretly loved to tell me that I, Addison Grey, was strong enough to get through life, that I could be someone. I never thought that I would be here to today.
I’ve heard numerous amount of time sthat my sister and I are destined to not make it through our teenage years “normal”. My sister, Ellie, was supposed to be the one that would be hooked on drugs and would eventually die of an accidental overdose, and I wasn’t supposed to make it to age 16. Everyone had me picked out to be the one that couldn’t handle her problems, the “emo” girl who would find her freedom from the tip of a blade. I was supposed to die of suicide. I’ve changed my stars, and let God be my freedom.
Unfortunately Ellie has almost fulfilled her “destiny”. She is two needles away to being dug into the ground, and thankfully I dropped the blade about 1 cm away from my main artery.
Words can be powerful,but actions are what says it all. I would have fulfilled my “destiny” if it weren’t the actions of a track star that cared for his team. I know that there are people out there that can’t stand to see their friends suffer, I know what you mean. I fight with myself everyday to make it through the urges to swipe the blade against my skin, but there are times I fail. There are times when I feel as if the whole world is crashing down.
I’ve learned that you can’t survive in this world alone. You have to have somebody to help you carry the weight. For me life has been a struggle, but I’ve made it. Addison Grey wont be marked in the book of death until God thinks it’s time. Every August morning it’s always hard to get up and live, because I gave my heart to someone that needed to be loved. This person was very important to me, and he messed up and that was it. My parents made me lose all contact with him.
I know that I’ve made mistakes, but it doesn’t matter. I’m here now, and I’m not going anywhere.
everything is peaceful
God is very near.
I no longer have my worries
I no longer have my fears.
I look at the sky,
painted with purples
and blues,
and I realize I’m thinking of you.
From Dawn to Dusk
I pray for trust
The birds fly high in the sky
flapping their wings
with all their might.
It’s second nature for them
to be so close
to God’s Golden City.
